Its been a long time but now I am back folks… I bet ya missed me didn’t ya.. hahah.. well newaise.. just to give you guys a quick update on my wonderful life..

Work:  well.. I kinda got forced out of my job that I work with my boyfriend.. but then it pretty much worked out for the better because now I found a job that does exactly the same thing but they the only difference is that they pay me a lot more money than the old place does.. well.. I still work for ADT.. I sell alarm systems for residential commercial buildings.. so if anybody want to get hooked up on a free system… then just holla at me =]… well newaise.. because of this job.. my boyfriend and I are gonna get 3 Gz quickstatuz, then we are going to move out. . yayyyy

LOVE LIFE:  well.. my boyfriend and I are doing just spiffy. Yesterday I was exhausted at work and my bby called me, and I told him I really want some shrimp spaghetti.  So the love of life went to the store and bought all the ingredients and made me shrimp spaghetti from scratch.. awww.. wut a sweety huh =] … I love him with every fiber in my body. Im so glad that I found him. Hes the sunshine in the my world. Without him my life would be dim… I love him so much!! Well on 4^th of july we took a 3 day trip down to Bakersfield to celebrate it with his dad side of the family… it was so wonderful. Every body in his family treats me real good and they call me a “LUFF” now.. (the family’s name) … well… we are planning on moving out together and live in a 1 room apartment by ourselves.. I cant wait.. I know that its just gonna be wonderful..

LIFE IN GENERAL:  well.. im going back to court tomorrow.. my stupid case has been stretched on to a trial.. and tomorrow  is my TRIAL.. im real nervous.. I hope nothing bad will go wrong.. im getting trialed for a FELONY AGGRAVATED ASSAULT WITH A DEADLY WEAPON.. that fuckn sucks ass man.. this is fuckin bullshit!!!! grrrr

dont have a comp no more so dont really go on diz shit no more either...

welll for all u fuccahz dat must noe.. i got into a car accident becuz stupid fuckn burrito eatter duznt noe how to fuckn drive.. well newaise.. im fine tnx for caring.. hahah.. yeh.. now im in debt but found myself a bombass job dat pays well so oh so spiffy i say...

newaise .. jon en i broke up.. im happier now.. good shit.. dass preddy much dea is dass new i guess.. k...umm.. yeh.. i think im interested in some1 but im not shure.. haha.. yeh..

also .. i must add dat my hope, love, and prayers go out to my dear best fren tony.. i will do wudever it takes to appeal diz case of his.. i kant not believe da sentencing.. FUCK AMERICA EN ITS JUDICIAL SYSTEM! i never cried so much.. 143 tony

Jon + Michelle

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Damn. Diz xanger-ish is getting soo boring.. I barely blog on this thing anymore. But nehoez.. things has been goin soo grrrreat dat I kant help myself. I jezz gotta share wid da world how happy I am!! Hehehe.. gorsh I love being happy!! Hopefully diz jolly joy im feeling will last for  sooooo very long!! Haha

LAST WEEK:  soo lyke.. I received lyke diz phone call from a person whom I thot I cared soo deeply about rite.. en yada yada.. we jezz conversated lyke normal.. den alla sudden he tells me dat bitch of a grl he got read my letters. Damn snoop. But nehoez. Den I guess she tripped on him or something… so he basically called me cuz he wants me to cover up for his ass so he don’t get assed out.. I mean.. I wuld do dat on my own newaise rite? Wy wuld I want to spit wat happened to some grl I don’t even lyke neawise rite. So gyeh. So I came home dat nite en wam bam. Da bitch Imed me. So blah blah. We started bitchn.. blah blah.. den he came over to my house .. den blahblah… I told him I don’t want to be his fren no more. So basically I ended our frenship. Wudevas. Shitz over wid. So gyeh.. dass lyke da onliee negative thing. And after diz booshiet. Things has been goin uphills!! =]

FRIDAY:  so I got all purdified (haha) en waited for mz dimplez along wid Klum Z tuh come en pick me up. Headed off to some party. At firss shit wuz  gayyy-o yo! Den iunno. Started drinkin wen da liquor arrived. Den mz playful along wid her sis kell came. Man oh man dyd a grl get fucked up. I wuz lyke woah drunk off da ass! Iunno .. manee shit happened dat nite. But it wuz mucho mucho fun! Haha.. da next day at work I wuz soooooo way tossed up!! I barghed lyke urraywher! Bed chair toilet.. hahah.. den came to work en I had to go home cuz I wuz throwin up still.. den my throat wuz hurting lyke a mother. So told my hb to bring me some won ton soup.. heheh..=]

SATURDAY:  so mz playful came over and I bought out my hommayyy mr. 151. haha.. took lyke a few shots den jon en collin came to scoop us up. Met up wid Klum Z at da block. Went to see hero. Omg! Dat movie wuz Chinese en all captions !! I wuz way buzzed en I culdnt even read it. Dat movie basically I don’t understand NOTHING! Gayyyyyyy.. but I got to be wid him… dat day went by perfectly. Heheh.. came home en talked to him till 5 in da morning=]

MONDAY:  so I wuz all expecting him to come.. but he culdnt make it.. pooo =[

TUESDAY TODAY:  so I wuz on da phone wid him after he wuz done wid skool en told me hes cumin =].. yayyyuh! So yeh. Waited en waited en finally he came! We chilled inside my office for bout 2o mins. Den went to eat at some ghetto place. But s’all good. Went to PHUOC LOC THO so I can get more ear piercings but da lady wuznt dea.. pooooo!! So went bacc to da office en he stayed wid me for bout another 3o mins. =] … so lyke okay.. wen he had to go I walked him to his car.. en he wuz standing dea holdin my hand.. den he asked me den yeh. Now we’re together! Hehehe. I am soo happy! He makes me soo happy!! I go to sleep wid a smile cuz of him en I wake up wid diz big ass cheesy smile cuz of him.. heheh.. im such a happy bitch! Hes lyke.. da reason to my happiness!! =]

Goodbye to the pain                   .. .. .07.19.04

First off.. lemme jezz apologize for my previos blogs. I have never used so many FUCK words in my life in a mere couple minutes. Haha.. well.. to let chu folks noe, im not as bitter anymore.. I guess I’ve jezz had more time to think and realize things.. I dunno.. da more time u got on ur hands, da more time u get to UNDERSTAND the importance of certain things goin on in ur life.. well.. lemme jezz go on preaching …

MY SINGLE LOVE LIFE:  well.. like I seyed, I’ve been having many long minutes to sit dea by myself and think.. I’ve realized many things.. actually.. it didn’t really hit me until my homeboy told me diz.. he says “ smilez, you always end up in the same feeling, just wid different partners. How many guys have u dated, and how many times have u end up in heartbreak? Don’t you realize it?!” so I asked him den whats da problem. He says its cuz I fall too quick too fast.. I agree.. I jezz think dat wen it comes to relationship, I jezz straight up suck!! I kant control my feelings, emotions, nor my heart. I don’t think I am ready to set foot in this path. Man, once I fall, I just keep on falling. I don’t want to do dat anymore. En worse yet, I ALWAISE FALL FOR DA WRONG GUYS!! I don’t wanna do diz no more.. so I call it QUITZ now.. yes you heard it, straight out from me! I QUIT!! No more relationships, no more heartbreaks, and no more falling hard on my face. I just don’t think im READY.. im still young, might as well sit back, learn, and enjoy my journey life without the drama and pain of a nigga breaking my heart. I noe I’ve said diz many times before, its just da onliee difference now is that it’s not becuz of a guy.. yeah even tho a certain some1 made me realize it, im purely doing diz all for me. So I wont be sad no more.. boys are just soo much pain and trouble. I don’t have enough strength to face it all anymore.. im gon save da rest of my strength to get over my court case and school problems.  Boys will onliee add on more burden to my already heavied shoulders. Damn.. after making dat decision.. I feel soo light.. its like a rock has jezz been lifted off my chest..  So.. goodbye for a real long time relationships. Goodbye. . . “seems to be da hardest words”. . .